A Beautiful Beginning

I am new to the blogging world.  While I have had a blog in the past (it was many years ago and on a different website), it never truely developed.  I decided to start a blog tonight.  A serendipitous discovery led to this beginning.

The night started out normal for me.  I am on Christmas break from college and being any good college student, I slept till 4:30 p.m. today.  Yes P.M.  I watched a couple movies, had dinner with my parents, played on farmville (yes I do love that game).  Being that I slept till 4 in the afternoon, I have resigned to the fact that I will be up all night.  Now I got bored on the internet (shocking for most people) and decided to scan the channels to see what is on tv.  We don't have satellite or cable so the local channels is what I make due with.  I actually don't mind.  I watch a lot of pbs and ion (such great channels and I love Criminal Minds).  Well we have 5, yes 5, christian channels on the local digital channels.  While surfing them I landed on the Church Channel.  Joyce Meyers was on and I stopped, don't know why, but I did.  Maybe it was because of her mispronoucing Philistine, I have no clue.  God had me stop and listen.

Before I continue I want to give you a little background on me.  I am 23 years old.  I am single, never been married, and have no children.  I am a born again believer in the risen Son of God.  I don't put labels on my faith, but if you wanted to know I attend an Assembly of God church.  I am a tongue talking, dancing, full believer in Jesus Christ, and I believe I can lay hands on someone and they be healed, that is the beauty of my God!  I weigh a little over 400 pounds.  While most people don't believe me when I say that (I carry my weight well because I have been overweight all my life), it is the truth.  I have high blood pressure and high cholesterol.  I have to take 3 medications daily.  However, I left my corporate job to go back to school.  I graduated with a history degree in the spring of 2009 and spent a year working at an insurance agency.  Because of this I am without insurance and with out medication.  Through prayer and decisions, I decided to go back and get my teachers certification.  I knew all along thats what I wanted to do, but decided getting out of college and making money was more important.  My weight has cause many problem, health wise, and has given me low self esteem.

With that being said, I was watching Joyce and she was talking about David and Goliath.  The words she spoke were powerful.  I have been thinking a lot about money issues and my weight (I have to come up with money for next semester and I don't know how that will happen).  She said we need to say, because we are, "I am a giant killer!"  Just like David, he slew Goliath the giant.  She started talking about weight.  She said that we need to find what we want to fix, find scripture to help us, pray, and start acting on it.  WE have to choose to let go of the worry but pray to God that we will do everything we can do.  When we do that God will do what we cant and we have to allow him to tell us the things we need to change and to do it.  WE HAVE TO MAKE PEACE WITH EVERYTHING AND ACCEPT GOD'S GREAT MERCY AND GRACE.  We also have to get in his word everyday to fully know him.

So with my bible in one hand and my pen in another, I sat down and tried to study the word of God.  I have known God for quite some time.  Yes I doubted him a couple times and turned completely away from him, that's another story.  I realized when I sat down, that I have never actually tried to read the bible and study it.  I didn't know where to begin.  So I got on facebook and went to some friends profiles.  These friends I was sure would have a verse or something to help me get started.  Well they didn't.  But one friend, who actually just became a minster, had a link to her blog on her facebook.  I knew I could go there and find something.  I did and found myself on this website.  After reading a couple of her entries, I decied to just text her.  Swallow my pride and tell her, "I'm not this big, studying the bible, christian, everyone thinks I am."  I asked her to pray for me first and then asked her to tell me where to start.  She gave me John as a starting point and then to move on to Genesis.  I have not yet begun these because after she texted me this, I looked up at the computer moniter and saw her blog.  I knew then that I was meant to create a blog.  To help me follow along God's powerful word, but to also make myself accountable to my reading and my study.  I also know that someone will come along and find my blog worth reading, and possibly turn to Christ or come back to his warm embrace.

That my friends is my beginning.  God is going to be working on me hardcore.  Physically, emotionally, and spiritually, and I invite you to join me on this adventure.  I will post progress on my weight loss, new things I learn, scriptures I found that spoke volumes to me, prayers that get answered and ones that don't, happenings with my friends and family, and my walk with Christ.  No one said following God would be easy, but the rewards are so great. 

I leave you will this till next time:
         Psalm 139:22-23
               Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.  See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

May God Bless You,
Carlena